My Disillusioned Self

Sorry for that last post…

Sorry for the last post It made sense when I wrote it… but reading it while not messed up it dosn’t make any sense… kind of like… ohh well might as well break the viscious nonesense making process… Here’s something coherent:

Everything has been kind of sucky. I had everything planned out pretty well but unfortunately one plan that I though was going well took a viscious curve on me and I’m trying to get it back to way it’s supposed to be, well, the way I believe it should be that is. I don’t really know what to do with the whole girl situation it’s starting to spiral out of control and I hate not being able to control it. On one hand you have me obsessing over one girl who isn’t even giving me the time of day and on the other I’m completely ignoring somebody who is. Ohh yes and on the third one I’m getting royaly fucked in fights because of this other chick but it’s the pain that makes it ohh soo sweet. Or is it the pain just a way of me commiting this self destructive act of liking her? I dunno really. All I know right now is that I have to finish this whole college thing before I go insanse. College is ripping away whatever sanity that I may have possessed at some time. I should definately dorm next year it will help me clear my head on alot of things that I’ve been thinking about. I’m starting to do that is this the right major for me thing again. Yes Justin it is!!!!! I know it is but I have interests in so many things it’s killing me to sack those experiences and concentrate on one that actually makes sense. I did my federal tax return and let’s just say that’s one thing that made me extremely happy. I want to use it to take a trip to either Europe or South East Asia this summer. Only problem is that will I actually be able to hold onto it for that long. After all I still have to pay for my cell phone bill school stuff that comes along and I want to finally get my motorcycle license before my permit expires. I’ll probably end up just taking a 3 week trip to S.E. Asia and taking the motorcycle classes so I don’t have to take the practical exam. All in all it should be fun and I’m a little suprised at how things have been going for the last couple of weeks. I went from being completely sure to completely unsure and then now in my current state of being partially sure. Ohh well it should be fun to see how everything unfolds as spring approaches…