Too confused for a title…
February 5th, 2005 Posted in ArchiveWell with all the confusion that I have been dealing with it’s a wonder that I’m still remaining sane. Today I realized a couple of things that I thought I should share. Everyone has something to offer someone else. I find it funny that people don’t realize what they have to offer and somehow take the crazy idea that they don’t have anything to offer and rationalize it. I see myself doing it and it scares me to death. People come to me all the time because I listen to them, well, I’m sick of listening!!!
Don’t get me wrong I enjoy listening to people but I have more to offer than just that. I know I’m weird but guess what? I’m ok with that. If i didn’t listen to people I would have never come to the realization of how much people rationalize harmful behavior.
Today I also realized what love really is, better than that is the fact that I can honestly say I have truly loved and love someone. You can try to describe love in so many ways but what it really boils down to is how do you feel about it? I’ve completely given up on the idea of fairy tale prince charming love because let’s face it, it does exist but it isn’t something that is permanent. When you meet someone new you click and begin dating you like that person and you like the new experience but can you really label it as love? I don’t think that is love. Love is something you don’t really know until you experience it. Sure some people will claim they are in love or that they have loved someone but no longer feel that way. Sorry to burst the proverbial bubble on you but if you don’t love someone anymore you truly never loved them. Now I’m not saying that you can not love someone in one way and then have that love evolve into a different love. No to me that makes perfectly logical sense. People change throughtout life and circumstances change and unfortunately/fortunately we have to accept whatever comes out way wheter we like it or not.
I guess if I could try to sum everything up it would be that people misunderstand the word love and it is due partially to all those movies we watch where the two people were meant to be together by some twist of fate. Ok that’s nice if you’re on T.V. but in the real world love is about really and without holding back caring for the well being of another person no matter what that persons decision is. In saying that I guess it would be also correct to say that the old adage that you can love without being loved is true.
Well I tried to sum everything up but I failed horribly and well I’m ok with that, after all it is human to err…. I love being human and all the problems and emotions that come with it!!!