My Disillusioned Self

(00:13:36) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): that you felt that way and never let me know anything was wrong
(00:14:31) Selfish Bitch: yeah but i thought that u ddi not want to hear that shit
(00:14:47) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): nope I always told you to be honest with me
(00:14:48) Selfish Bitch: and that mayve i just thought that maybe u would get a point hat sometimes u needed to do it
(00:15:01) Selfish Bitch: u would get pissed off
(00:15:04) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): thought you didin’t want that stuff
(00:15:14) Selfish Bitch: and u would take it out of portiopn
(00:15:30) Selfish Bitch: u knew that i like that shite
(00:15:37) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): no
(00:15:41) Selfish Bitch: even through i did not wnat to let u knwo
(00:15:48) Selfish Bitch: but u should have know that shit from me
(00:15:55) Selfish Bitch: if you knew me t
(00:16:00) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): whenever I got you something you never acted happy or suprised
(00:16:08) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so I stopped
(00:16:15) Selfish Bitch: u would have done that for me
(00:16:15) Selfish Bitch: since u tell me about it
(00:16:15) Selfish Bitch: that you know me and shit
(00:16:29) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I know you to the extent that you allow yourself to be known
(00:16:49) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): can we talk about this on the phone?
(00:18:14) Selfish Bitch: well i am watchign tv with karin
(00:18:22) Selfish Bitch: and honestly i odnt’ really want someone else in the rom
(00:18:27) Selfish Bitch: while we are talking abouthtis
(00:18:34) Selfish Bitch: so can we talk about this tomorrow
(00:18:37) Selfish Bitch: when u call me
(00:18:42) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): no no big deal then
(00:18:53) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): cause it’s not important so I’ll never bring it up again
(00:18:54) Selfish Bitch: y?
(00:18:57) Selfish Bitch: uh?
(00:19:33) Selfish Bitch: yeah it is important
(00:19:37) Selfish Bitch: to me
(00:19:44) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): it is?
(00:19:47) Selfish Bitch: yeh
(00:19:51) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): y?
(00:19:52) Selfish Bitch: but i just dont; need someone there
(00:19:55) Selfish Bitch: to u know
(00:19:57) Selfish Bitch: talk about it
(00:20:05) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I understand that
(00:20:09) Selfish Bitch: ok
(00:20:18) Selfish Bitch: do u understnad where i am coming from
(00:20:21) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): can you tell me why it’s important?
(00:20:30) Selfish Bitch: bc i woudl ike to know how u are feeling
(00:20:46) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): fair enough
(00:20:50) Selfish Bitch: and that we should ahve tlaked about it
(00:21:01) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I have a question though
(00:21:06) Selfish Bitch: when i was kindin shoudl have told u
(00:21:08) Selfish Bitch: u know
(00:21:24) Selfish Bitch: yeah
(00:21:44) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): why didn’t you just tell me to shutup one day and let me know what was going on?
(00:21:49) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): you know you could of done that
(00:22:57) Selfish Bitch: bc i thoguht taht u were going to get mad
(00:23:01) Selfish Bitch: and say shit to me about it
(00:23:06) Selfish Bitch: so i just keep my month shit
(00:23:09) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): and if I did I would be an asshole
(00:23:12) Selfish Bitch: shut i mean’t to say
(00:23:17) Selfish Bitch: yea i know
(00:23:18) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): but now I feel like an asshole
(00:23:53) Selfish Bitch: don;t feel like an asshole
(00:24:10) Selfish Bitch: bc i shoudl ahve told u about this before
(00:24:18) Selfish Bitch: adn shit so dont’ feel like a asshole
(00:24:18) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): no I really do cause I had a completely different picture of what you wanted
(00:24:20) Selfish Bitch: so it is ok
(00:24:33) Selfish Bitch: then what was ur picture of me then
(00:24:35) Selfish Bitch: uh?
(00:24:36) Selfish Bitch: explain
(00:24:53) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): no problem I would rather speak them on a phone but I’ll try to explain them by typing
(00:24:58) Selfish Bitch: ok
(00:24:59) Selfish Bitch: np
(00:25:29) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): First you seemed like you didn’t care about what I consider petty things like flowers and gifts
(00:25:41) Selfish Bitch: ok
(00:25:45) Selfish Bitch: so far i get it
(00:25:52) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I thought you would rather have something tangible like shown affection
(00:26:28) Selfish Bitch: ok i can see what you thought the pciute
(00:26:30) Selfish Bitch: of me then
(00:26:34) Selfish Bitch: and i should have todl u this
(00:26:34) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): you know an actual emotional attachment instead of the old “dating game”
(00:26:47) Selfish Bitch: ok
(00:27:15) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I always wanted to take you somewhere
(00:27:24) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): but you never really wanted to set a date and go
(00:27:31) Selfish Bitch: that is true
(00:27:40) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so I kinda figured you just wanted to stay home and do nothing
(00:27:46) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I personally like comedy clubs
(00:27:50) Selfish Bitch: yeha i know what you men
(00:27:51) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): small music venues
(00:27:54) Selfish Bitch: and how u thoguht of the pciture
(00:27:55) Selfish Bitch: and hsit u know
(00:27:56) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): a bar once in a while
(00:27:59) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:28:04) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): but you never wanted to go
(00:28:07) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:28:19) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): damn I had to pull a leg to get you to jjust go bowling
(00:28:27) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I like camping
(00:28:29) Selfish Bitch: yeha i know
(00:28:31) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): you never wanted to go
(00:28:32) Selfish Bitch: hate camping
(00:28:34) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:28:39) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): have you ever camped?
(00:28:48) Selfish Bitch: no
(00:28:51) Selfish Bitch: but i hate it so
(00:28:58) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): hah you can’t hate what you don’t know
(00:29:03) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): but irrelevant none the less
(00:29:15) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I liked the idea of sky diving
(00:29:24) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): thought we could have a good time with it
(00:29:30) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:29:33) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): amusement parks would of been cool but you were so not for it
(00:29:49) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:30:06) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): hey you could of come to the shooting range once in a while with me and shown a little interest
(00:30:30) Selfish Bitch: i know
(00:30:50) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so I think we both had the wrong idea of what each other wanted
(00:30:54) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): why was that?