My Disillusioned Self

(00:30:57) Selfish Bitch: yeah that is tre
(00:31:10) Selfish Bitch: not sure why we would have two different idea of each oter
(00:31:34) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I do have a question for you though 2 actually
(00:31:53) Selfish Bitch: ?
(00:31:58) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): Why did you never ask me to goto prom with you?
(00:32:05) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): and last years formal why not?
(00:32:35) Selfish Bitch: bc usually i had a date with one of my friends
(00:32:45) Selfish Bitch: and i thought taht it woudl be nice
(00:32:49) Selfish Bitch: and have fun and enjpy myself
(00:33:01) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): don’t think it’s weird not to invite your bf to your formal?
(00:33:17) Selfish Bitch: um
(00:33:31) Selfish Bitch: good question
(00:33:35) Selfish Bitch: dont ahve a anwer for that oenr
(00:33:38) Selfish Bitch: right
(00:33:39) Selfish Bitch: now
(00:33:45) Selfish Bitch: need to get back on taht one iwth ou tomorrow
(00:33:48) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I don’t think you likes me around
(00:33:56) Selfish Bitch: wehn i cna think of agood anwer
(00:34:07) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I don’t need a good answer
(00:34:12) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I just need an honest one
(00:34:28) Selfish Bitch: um bc i jut thought what people woudl say
(00:34:30) Selfish Bitch: and shit like taht
(00:34:37) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): what would they say?
(00:34:38) Selfish Bitch: bc u know how i am like what pople say
(00:34:41) Selfish Bitch: i dont know
(00:34:44) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): you were ashamed of me?
(00:34:47) Selfish Bitch: no
(00:34:55) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): then what did you think they would say?
(00:35:01) Selfish Bitch: dk
(00:35:27) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): Ohh I get it I wasn’t attractive enough to goto the formal with you?
(00:35:37) Selfish Bitch: yup
(00:35:49) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): is that the truth?
(00:36:22) Selfish Bitch: yup
(00:36:32) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): are you being sarcastic?
(00:36:36) Selfish Bitch: yup
(00:36:48) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so what was the reason?
(00:37:02) Selfish Bitch: bc i jsut was not that into that much
(00:37:30) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so why were you “ashamed” of me going with you?
(00:37:44) Selfish Bitch: i was not ashamed of you at all
(00:37:51) Selfish Bitch: but i was not into that much
(00:37:53) Selfish Bitch: at the time
(00:38:01) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): then what changed?
(00:38:10) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): and why did you care what people thought of me?
(00:38:14) Selfish Bitch: bc i was not in love wiht u
(00:38:18) Selfish Bitch: bc i dont; know
(00:38:49) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): if you weren’t in love with me at that time why didn’t you let it be known
(00:39:00) Selfish Bitch: bc i did not wnat to hurt
(00:39:00) Selfish Bitch: u
(00:39:15) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): then why did you want to get back together with me after we broke it off?
(00:39:23) Selfish Bitch: bc i did not wnat ot be alone
(00:39:25) Selfish Bitch: and shit like that
(00:39:35) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): ok so when did you stop “loving” me
(00:40:03) Selfish Bitch: like last year bc i thought that i was in lvoe with u but i guess i was not
(00:40:12) Selfish Bitch: bc i wanted to see if you are the right one for me
(00:40:18) Selfish Bitch: so i woudl like to see that myself
(00:40:26) Selfish Bitch: and that is about it
(00:40:29) Selfish Bitch: i guess
(00:40:35) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): ohh so you basically took someones emotions and played games with them?
(00:40:39) Selfish Bitch: no
(00:40:42) Selfish Bitch: i was not
(00:40:53) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): then why say you love someone if you don’t?
(00:40:55) Selfish Bitch: bc i did not want ot hurt u and i just htought that you were just igon to be there
(00:40:57) Selfish Bitch: no matter what
(00:41:15) Selfish Bitch: i was in love with u but i was not in love with ou
(00:41:17) Selfish Bitch: the last year
(00:41:24) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): I dunno I might be going out on a limb here….
(00:41:26) Selfish Bitch: i just wanted
(00:41:56) Selfish Bitch: not to be alone
(00:41:57) Selfish Bitch: that is all
(00:42:00) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): but a teacher once told me that there’s one four letter word you never use unless you mean it because it causes a lot of pain and trouble
(00:42:09) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so you used me for company?
(00:42:26) Selfish Bitch: um kina
(00:43:01) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so the only reason I was around was to keep you company so you didn’t feel lonely?
(00:43:06) Selfish Bitch: yup
(00:43:29) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): are you being serious or sarcastic?
(00:43:39) Selfish Bitch: no i am being serious
(00:44:13) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): wow I can’t talk to you then
(00:44:17) Selfish Bitch: ok
(00:44:26) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): do you care?
(00:44:32) Selfish Bitch: yeah i do care
(00:44:53) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): why if I was only around so you wouldn’t be lonelt
(00:45:02) Selfish Bitch: yeah and no
(00:45:08) Selfish Bitch: but i think that it was the main reason
(00:45:14) Selfish Bitch: and i just thought that you would not get hur
(00:45:49) Me (xlCarpeNoctemlx): so why do you talk to me now?
(00:46:05) Selfish Bitch: bc i donl;t wnat to lose ur as a friend
(00:46:15) Selfish Bitch: but if u dont; like it then we will nto stay freidds