My Disillusioned Self

Out of control

Last night was out of control. It has been a while since I have gone out and got totally trashed. So last night I did and it was the biggest mistake I have ever made. We ended up at Marion’s house and were leaving and these group of fucking black kids started fucking with us. I wasn’t driving so I let my friend Buke drive the car because he was sober. We took off and ended up in a parking lot where they were fucking hitting the car and trying to get in. We ended up fucking my car up with damages that I can’t even imagine the cost of. Buke told me he was going to pay for everything. I hope he does because I have no transportation, no job, and no money to get to school everyday. Life is just sucking right now an my hangover is killing me. There’s so much more that went on I can’t even believe it. No one seemed to really care about what happened which pissed me of majorly. Cheri kept calling me asking me about the beer! You know what! My car has over $2000 worth of damages and we almost got jumped by fucking a shitload of black kids and you’re worried about your fuckin beer! Then right after that Erin calls about her cell phone! She knew what happened and didn’t even ask if I was OK. That’s fucked up! Thanks for caring if I’m Ok or not. This was a wake up call for me. I’m unfortunately going to have to suffer because my parents aren’t letting me drive and are removing me from their insurance. I have to get to a body shop to get Buke an estimate on the damages because he fucked my car up and it wasn’t called for at all. Other than that I’m just going to contemplate suicide because I’m sick of everything not going right in my life. I see who my friends are and that is the only person who was descent to me last night when shit hit the fan.