My Disillusioned Self

She comes at night hiding in the corner

She looks at me with those piercing eyes,
I began to shake and cry cause I know why she’s here,
she’s here to collect,
she has no care of what my tomorrow may bring,
she has no care for not being ready to accept
she’s here now and that’s all that matters,
I cry and I don’t know why I’m crying,
I begin to shiver but I don’t know why I’m shivering,
She says it will be all right and I know why I’m crying,
I look at her again and see those horrible red eyes,
I look at her again and see that horrible red smile,
I look at her again and all I see is that horrible darkness,
I begin to shiver and cry,
not wanting to accept the fact that she’s here,
everyone said i should be happy,
everyone says it should be quick,
everyone says you should be relaxed,
everyone says you know when she’s there.
she’s here but I still can’t believe it,
the shivers the cold gripping at my body is uncontrollable,
I cry some more and want to know why she is doing this to me,
is she really here for me?
Why is she toying with me like this,
I want to tell everyone that I love them
will she let me?
will she let me?
will she let me?
will she let me?
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