Where life has gone….
Where has life gone since December 2006(the date of my last post)? I mean, hell like all things in life it seems to have come out of nowhere. I left you all last time with my grandmother sick and dying in the hospital. Well, she’s gone hopefully to a better place than this weird, weird, world that we live in. Since then, the winter has gone, the summer has come, and – HOLY SHIT! the summer is over and we are already into the fall months.
The speed at which life passes us really caught up with me on my birthday this year. I mean, I’m still young at the barely lived life age of 23 but I mean really, where has all the time gone? Sometimes I just sit around and think about all the time people, myself included, waste in life. We’re always looking for the next big thing, never really realizing what’s going on right in front of our faces.
you know i also do have these yearly reflections and i usually have the same feeling of shock when i step back to check it out in retrospect. i wind up feeling underachieving in alot of things partly because im still at that ‘i dont give a fuck” persona. i also humor myself by equally accepting the poor choices i have made by figuring that if im alive to tell the tale and that i am functional, nothing could really be that bad. so its a rough point like ‘well, i fucked up, such and such happened but whatever’ ….that whatever is my golden ticket because i just dont give a shit enough to care about anything beyond my immediate well being. that ability to shed skins is probably the only mechanism of defense but i believe its gotten my farther in life then any other all of the people i have met or throught the course of my travels. and that is how “i dont give a fuck, whatever”
so thus said. ive had a good year and things could be way worse. happy holidays.
personally i think i enjoy druidism..they celebrate celetsial observations instead because people seem to forget that life is one big pattern after another.
myspace me i am super duper cool.