My Disillusioned Self

I feel better today! Well a little….

I’ve been sick since friday and the last few days I felt like I was going to die. I went to the health and wellness center on campus(I know I should have known better). Ok, so I go down there looking for some over the counter medications to get rid of this unbearable cold I had. I couldn’t breathe or talk cause that started the whole coughing up greenish yellow thick mucousy substance and choking on it. The nurse there was like ohh the doctor will be here in about 10 minutes if you want to wait for him. I tell her politely that I have a class that I can’t be late to otherwise I will fall behind. Well that bitch has the nerve to make me wait 10 minutes just to call me in to take my temperature and tell me the doctor will be right with me. Ok, so now I’m waiting for the doctor I don’t even want to see and end up waiting another 10 minutes until he comes in asks me what’s the matter and does all the usual doctorly stuff(i.e. check lungs, throat, and ears). He tells me he wants to send me for a chest X-ray and get a throat culture because my throat is really red! I tell him the reason my throat is red is because I can’t stop coughing up this green yellow thick stuff. He tells me I have an uper respiratory infection and that I need antibiotics. Ok, I’m cool with that! I already knew what I had but whenever this happens is goes away by itself if I just treat the symptoms without antiobiotics. But I digress, let’s give modern medicine a chance. I go out to the nurses with my chart and get this old decrepid lady who looks like she is going to fucking die right there. She notifies me that I am going to have to have a chest x-ray and a throat culture before they can give me any antibiotics and that they are going to bill me for it and I have to submit to my insurance company the receipts. I look at her tell her that’s not acceptable I am not going to pay you just call the antibiotics into a pharmacy and I don’t need the chest xray or the throat culture. She tells me she can’t and I flip out because it’s new york state law that they have to. Well to make a long story short I piss I moan and tell them thank you for wasting my fucking time and have a nice day you fucking cunt. On the way out I flip the doctor the bird and storm out of the building. What did I end up with in the end? Well I ended up going to class coughing my brains out 30 minutes late extremely ticked off with no cold medication to make me feel better. The lesson I learned in the end was just go to the dinning hall and pay $.87 per dose for the cold medication I have behind the counter when I’m sick.

Looooonnnngggg Time

Wow! It has been way too fucking long since I wrote in this blog. I feel kind of bad **smacks self in face**. I will make it up to everyone! I swear I will! I don’t know how exactly but you will be rewarded? I’m currently living in the dorms on campus waiting to move in to the new ones that they promised us we would be in at the beginning of the semester. Those fucking liars! Well the next promised date was before October 15, 2005. Hey I guess we’ll see what happens.

I wrote a letter to the Vice President of Student life the other day about starting a fraternity on campus. This campus is a dry campus with out any social life what so ever. I look outside and it looks like people evacuated due to a biological attack scare. There is nooooo one outside on the weekends. I mean once in a while you might see someone running on the pavement trying to quickly get to their dorms so they don’t have to socialize with the evil evil people! But I digress, I wrote a letter to Vice President Weinberg as follows:

Vice President Weinberg,
I am writing you concerning the ability to start a fraternity on
Farmingdale State campus. I as well as other students, feel that the
clubs available on campus, while they do serve their respective
purposes, are not all inclusive of what the college experience should
be like. We feel that starting a fraternity would allow us to meet
the objectives of the college by teaching us about brotherly
friendship, academic scholarship, personal conduct, and financial
commitment. Not only will starting a fraternity teach us lifelong
lessons but, it also will instill a sense of pride when we graduate
and look back at out alma mater and realize everything that it allowed
us to experience. We would like to have the schools support on this
endeavor and any assistance that you would be able to give us would be
greatly appreciated. We hope you realize the wonderful opportunity
this would be for the student population as well as a great addition
to the university. Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,
Justin X XXXXXXX
631-XXX-XXXX
xxxxxxx@XXXX.XXX

Ok so we all know the reason that I want to start a fraternity on campus. Yes, studying and brotherly love definitely is not one of them but I do think it will increase the student morale a bit and solve Farmingdale’s student retention problem. Also a fraternity is a great way to get students involved in campus life because most national fraternities mandate frat involvement at the school. Weinberg did reply rather fast considering the sensitive nature of the topic. I was a little disappointed with his reply:

Justin,

There are a myriad of issues and some problems around the notion of starting
a fraternity here at Farmingdale State. I’m not against anything, but I have
some experience-based concerns as does the College President, as well as the
Chancellor and the S.U.N.Y. system.

That said, I’d be glad to meet with you toward the end of this month to
explore the possibility. Call my office and we can set up a meeting for the
end of the last week or the first week in October as I will be in and out of
the office over the next two weeks speaking at conferences and attending
others.

Respectfully,

VP Stewart J. Weinberg

Yeah, I know, I got shaft. I’m going to go make an appointment with him anyway because Weinberg is a pretty cool guy. I know what my answer most likey is going to be but hey I can always promise the school no alcohol or wild parties on campus. I really do want the schools support on this issue because it would make life so much easier. If they don’t give us support though I will do this on my own and I will succeed. There are no if ands or buts about it, a fraternity will happen at farmingdale if it is recognized by the school or not.

I’m pretty much done for today **slaps myself again** but I promise to be good and type here at least 3 times a week if it kills me. I’m going to go see my girlfriend Maggie (yeah, the one that I keep getting back together with. I love here though so it’s all good) so writing will be a bit difficult, but, I will persevere and I will write here!

THE NERVOUS PRIEST

A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done. The monsignor replies,”When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. If I start to get nervous, I take a sip.” So the next Sunday he took the monsignor’s advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He then proceeded to talk up a storm. Upon return to his office after mass he found the following note on his door:

1. Sip the vodka, don;t gulp.
2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J.C.
7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior, and Spook.
8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.
9. When David was hit by a rock and knocked off his donkey, don’t say “He was stoned off his ass.”
10. We do not refer to the cross as the Big T!
11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, “Take this and eat it, for it is my body”, he did not say, “Eat me.”
12. The Virgin Mary is not referred to as the “Mary with the Cherry.”
13. The recommended grace before a meal is not “Rub-A-dub-dub, thanks for the grub.
14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter’s, not a peter pulling contest at St. Taffy’s.

She comes at night hiding in the corner

She looks at me with those piercing eyes,
I began to shake and cry cause I know why she’s here,
she’s here to collect,
she has no care of what my tomorrow may bring,
she has no care for not being ready to accept
she’s here now and that’s all that matters,
I cry and I don’t know why I’m crying,
I begin to shiver but I don’t know why I’m shivering,
She says it will be all right and I know why I’m crying,
I look at her again and see those horrible red eyes,
I look at her again and see that horrible red smile,
I look at her again and all I see is that horrible darkness,
I begin to shiver and cry,
not wanting to accept the fact that she’s here,
everyone said i should be happy,
everyone says it should be quick,
everyone says you should be relaxed,
everyone says you know when she’s there.
she’s here but I still can’t believe it,
the shivers the cold gripping at my body is uncontrollable,
I cry some more and want to know why she is doing this to me,
is she really here for me?
Why is she toying with me like this,
I want to tell everyone that I love them
will she let me?
will she let me?
will she let me?
will she let me?
…

CNN.com - High court OKs personal property seizures - Jun 23, 2005

CNN.com - High court�OKs personal property seizures - Jun 23, 2005
Just when you thought your home was the only safe place! I think it’s time we show the government who they work for! They are here for us we are not here for them! I say the its time for Americans to wake up before we lose the chance to change peacefully. A revolution is coming and I can’t wait for it to happen!

WASHINGTON (AP) — – The Supreme Court on Thursday ruled that local governments may seize people’s homes and businesses — even against their will — for private economic development……..
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School!

Wow! I haven’t posted in such a long time! Well school is kicking my ass something hard. I decided in all my genius to take 12 accelerated credits and am going to die! Anyway, decided I’m going to start blogging about webpages every now and then so here’s the first batch!:

Cost of college books making you even poorer? Professors swear to you that they picked the most economical book? Why not try some free online math textbooks. Hate math? Dread taking calculus? You should try this page for the calculus phoebe. Taking Physics or some other math or science course requiring tons of calculations? Why not try here for you HP folk and here i you’ve been cursed with a TI.

Well that’s it for today!

Drug Dealers vs. Software Developers

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123 Robotics Experiments for The Evil Genius

I haven’t been writing lately because I converted my keyboard to a Dvorak keymap and its been hell to learn to type all over again. I picked up a book the other day called “123 Robotics Experiments for The Evil Genius” and it,s a pretty cool book. It comes with a PCB so I ordered the parts to put it together from mouser.com (for those who are interested the parts I ordered are on page 2). I’m having trouble finding a some of the parts from Mouser so I’m probably going to order from somewhere else too. I picked up my rowing machine yesterday! It fucking rocks! Read the rest of this entry »

Out of control

Last night was out of control. It has been a while since I have gone out and got totally trashed. So last night I did and it was the biggest mistake I have ever made. We ended up at Marion’s house and were leaving and these group of fucking black kids started fucking with us. I wasn’t driving so I let my friend Buke drive the car because he was sober. We took off and ended up in a parking lot where they were fucking hitting the car and trying to get in. We ended up fucking my car up with damages that I can’t even imagine the cost of. Buke told me he was going to pay for everything. I hope he does because I have no transportation, no job, and no money to get to school everyday. Life is just sucking right now an my hangover is killing me. There’s so much more that went on I can’t even believe it. No one seemed to really care about what happened which pissed me of majorly. Cheri kept calling me asking me about the beer! You know what! My car has over $2000 worth of damages and we almost got jumped by fucking a shitload of black kids and you’re worried about your fuckin beer! Then right after that Erin calls about her cell phone! She knew what happened and didn’t even ask if I was OK. That’s fucked up! Thanks for caring if I’m Ok or not. This was a wake up call for me. I’m unfortunately going to have to suffer because my parents aren’t letting me drive and are removing me from their insurance. I have to get to a body shop to get Buke an estimate on the damages because he fucked my car up and it wasn’t called for at all. Other than that I’m just going to contemplate suicide because I’m sick of everything not going right in my life. I see who my friends are and that is the only person who was descent to me last night when shit hit the fan.

I have decided my life is boring

Well, where do I start? I know, I start nowhere! I have come to the conclusion that my life, as it is currently, is completely boring. Nothing interesting really goes on in it. The very evidence of my life being boring is this blog. The fact that I can find time in my life to type online to somebody or possibly nobody for that matter, shows that my life is boring. I’m going to change that! I have decided to set goals to make my life a little less boring. Hah, I’m setting goals to make life less boring! But I digress. I plan to accomplish this by adhering to the following list:

1) I will do 1 crazy thing a day
2) I will do at least 1 thing I enjoy every day
3) I will masturbate less so I have more time on my hands (instead of… nevermind… )
4) I will actively flirt with as many members of the opposite sex as humanly possible in the course of the day
5) I will talk to the people on the street who talk to themselves
6) I will contemplate another piercing monthly
7) I will try every sexual position in the Kama Sutra I will perform every kinky activity that is on my mind and if I can’t do it immediately I will write it down for further dissemination
9) I will talk to everybody for no reason at all because, if I talk to everybody I’m bound to meet someone interesting
10) I will say whatever is on my mind to whoever I am with at the time. The outcome of saying it is irrelavent and I will say it anyway
11) I will finally admit to myself that I am different and people will never completely understand my motivation for things. In doing this I will do all those things that I find motivating.
12) I will spend less time on the computer
13) I will spend more time outdoors
14) I will find excuses to go out to places where numerous people congregate
15) I will goto BDSM clubs more often
16) I will set aside a study time that does not interfere with my social life
17) I will remove any inhibitions that I have about everything and push the envelope
18) I will get more people to confirm reading my blog regulary so I know I am not wasting my time
19) I will sleep less
20) I will try never ever to type a boring list like this again

Well, I’m glad I got that out of the way. Now to violate almost every single one of them……..

The shit I do…

Well where do I even begin to start? I know! I’ll start on Thursday! Thursday was a boring day for me and I slept most of the day because I was up all Wednesday doing absolutely nothing online. I had promised Erin that I would pick her up from work because her uncle was being a dick. I went to pick her up and suprise, suprise, she asked me to take her to Ryan’s cause she bought him something. We stopped at Ryan’s and then when we were leaving Ryan for some reason was coming with us. It seems that Erin decided to tell Ryan that he could come for the ride when they were on the phone previously (Erin saying to Ryan she remembered no such conversation…. yeah ok..). No, I’m not a fucking taxi! I’ll do you a favor because you’re one of my friends but I’m not taking the whole world with me and to do it with out asking is just fucking ridiculous. Ok, so I drop Erin off and on the way back home I get pulled over by a cop!
He asks me for the usual stuff which of course I didn’t bring my wallet with me so I had no drivers license! I ended up scrounging my passport out of my pocket (thank god i keep it there) that piqued the cops interest even more, but hey, at lease I had identification. He gave me a hard time about the inspection sticker on the car and asked me whos car it was. I can’t say my car because the registration is under my moms name so I say my moms.

The cop then asks me “Your mom has naked ladies hanging from the rear view mirror and a got a sec lets fuck sticker on the door?”.

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Sitting in Psychology class

I’m sitting here in psychology class doing absolutely nothing! I hate this shit it’s ridiculous. Right now I’m averaging an 80 on my tests so it’s not that bad and won’t affect my G.P.A. to drastically so it’s not like I’m really worried about the whole situation. I showed up for lab today and it was interesting because the Professor didn’t show up and we actually had a sub!!!!! Guess who the sub was? Yeah it was the Department chair… I found that kind of funny. What’s even funnier is that I haven’t been able to wake up for my circuit analysis class all week and he covered everything that we learned in a week in a matter of 45 minutes! He teaches good and fast it’s such a great combination.

Erin and I got into an argument in the car the other night after that whole Romeo and Juliet thing. I’m kind of disappointed in her because she’s back to doing coke again and it’s so not what she shoulf be doing! I guess it bothers me so much because she could be doing so much more with her life and has the potential to be somebody and I feel like she’s fucking it up. Well its not my life and I can’t control her but I wish she would just wake up and relaize that she can have anything that she wants if she puts her mind to it!

On a brighter note me and Maggie are talking again! Yeah I think I said that a few days ago but were talking and kind of back to the way things were before we got all fucked up. We’re not dating and I’m cool with that (actually I prefer that and think its the best idea that we have had yet.) but we definately are hardcore into each other. She wants to try out the Ampallang as soon as it heals :-D, no complaints from me there. Also I’m kinda happy cause I was promised a lap dance when she gets back (ohh yeah what a way to enjoy it after having to be celibate for 3 months!!!!!).

About the Ampallang…. well it’s feeling kind of good except when it gets caught on my boxers or some other mystery item inside my pants, then it just plain hurts. Otherwise I have to stop touching the fucking thing otherwise it’s going to get infected. I’ll post later on tonight!

Picture of my Ampallang (Nudity)

Just wanted to post a quick picture of my Ampallang!! I’ll post more about it some other time.
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Ampallang!!!

It’s fucking done!!! I got it done I’m sooo happy!!! It didn’t hurt as much as I though it would but it still hurts like a fucking bitch! Just in case you don’t know what I’m talking about, I got myself an Ampallang! I will post pictures as soon as I heal a bit…. In the mean time I’m done with my craziness for today!! I’m going to try to give my body a rest.

Sincerely,
Guy with an Ampallang

I’ve Lost it officially

I’ve officially lost in and I’m going to go crazy!! I’m seriously considering an Ampallang!!! I know I know… “Justin You’re gonna be pissing 3 ways from sunday. Not to mention it’s gonna hurt like a bitch!” I don’t know what to do I really really want one. I know my pain threshold is pretty high so that’s not the problem. The only thing I’m really concerned about is infection. I’m not really prone to infections but the whole idea of having my member pierced and it getting infected sends chills throughout my body. I’ve decided that I’m going to goto Body Design on Sunrise Highway to get it done. I’m not sure if I want someone to be with me or if I’m going to go by myself. Only time will really tell……… Well I’m making the phone call right now :-/ ….. I dunno let’s see if I can get the balls to go…. I’ll let you know what’s up!